im so effing. pissed.

now, before you continue reading all the shit that i'll gonna type. i suggest you to stop reading if you're gonna comment nonsense about this entry. cause im pissed off and im not thinking straight.

anyway,

i was just doing my lit prepration for the CA just now, and my table was so damning messy. so it was close to impossible to study w/o everything getting in the way. moreover my damn correction tape dropped on the floor and the damn shithead thing broke. so i can't use it.

and im trying to finish up on karib's work now, and omg the correction tape shit spoilt my mood. so i decided to blog out my anger before i explode.

fuck all this stress, freak school. i don't get this.

whats the damn point of studying????? omg. wtf.

and omg, i've got so much tuitions that i don't have time to actually SLEEP. gosh. and i can still blog. WOW, ironic isn't it.

omg. omg omg. i swear i'll be as mad as anything.

wtf did i end up in freaking NA.

sometimes i wish i ended up in NT. at least it's easier.
but then again, couldn't i have done better and got into express, so by now my stress and all is OVER.

but wth? i had to be put in freaking effing lousy NA.

at least im glad i've got a great motivating class.

wtf. i'm so tired. so tired. so tired.

im sick of essays after essays, chinese after chinese.

the jump from sec 4n to sec 5n is so so huge. so huge. that it's so effing hard to cope.

wth. and im not the only one i know, but why does it seem as if im the only one whose complaining? maybe other ppl can cope but i can't.

wth. why they can cope and i can't?

wtf.
wtf.

i hate tuitions. i can't wait till chinese o's are over. so i don't have to read a single chinese word out of my will EVER. gosh. another reason why JC isn't my top piority.

gosh.

everyone says o levels is easy.
easy my foot.
the process is hard.

moreover, my command of English is dropping. wth. not to mention my chinese.

ugh. i want to do well for my os to beat my cousins, i swear. i really want to beat one of my ''aunties'' she's so effing smart. she studies everyday. she's in triple science. GOSH..

I WISH I WAS IN TRIPLE SCIENCE.

that way, i can focus on my science. and have more subs to choose from.

ironic isn't it, that i dropped home ec. but my amount of stress is greater then other ppl.

it's a wonder how they cope. i should totally learn from them.

wtf.

life sucks now, everything seems wrong.

wth am i still blogging for? i should get some sleep.

ugh.

monday-english tuition
tuesday- chinese ''
wed- math ''
thurs- bio ''
friday- effing odac that i want to quit.
sat- chem tuition
sun- church day. the only that i look forward too. pity sundays fly pass the fastest. :(

ugh. tuition everyday.
studying everyday.

whats the damn point??? i study so hard, in the end? i still fail.

what more i HAVE to do well.

why? the pressure coming from my family, my relatives. my tutors. myself. my damn self.

wtf.

i think im paranoid.

told you to ignore this entry, it's so useless.

i feel so useless.

ugh.

i think im paranoid.

wtf, am i studying for??? what is the point?? gosh.

ugh.


yawn. i want a long holiday, so that i can take my own sweet time to catch up with the class.

i want to pon school and stay home.
ugh. as if i can.

ahhhhhhhhh i hate this year SO BAD.

ugh. it's mid-feb already and i haven't adapted YET. wth? it's it a tad bit late already? by now i should have been all ready and all to study.

wth. im so paranoid.

gosh. i can't stand myself sometimes.

moreover some things that ppl said is affecting me, some stuffs thats on my mind that im not s'pose to think of, esp this year, is affecting me too.

UGHH

i'll swim my troubles away.

i can't wait for friday, sat, sunday.

im not gg for odac this fri! watching movie.
sat after tuition, i'll go swimming,

sunday is church day. oh yeas.

..

know what, i'm gonna cancel ALL my tuitions during the march hols. all of it except maybe chinese, that old bitch will not let me cancel. screw her old smelly cheena brains.

freak.

i think im getting too vulgar.

ohhh no.

i think im turning mad.

bye.